Hello beautiful world.  My name is Robbie and I am both excited and nervous to be starting on this journey with whoever is out there: Fair warning, I am grammatically handicapped (much like Derek Zoolander was handicapped in turning left), so a lot of this might seem like rambling!

Just a few years ago, I would never be able to reflect on these questions.  My time traveling, reading, meditating, volunteering, living, breathing and reflecting have provided me with a glimpse of what life would be like “living in the moment”, breaking the mental layers of ego.  To say I am ego free is completely false, and I mean FAR from the truth, but I now notice the ego and “me” as two entities.  Eckhart Tolle starts his book “Power of Now” with his story of realization; the moment when he stated “I hate myself”, then asked “who is this myself, that I hate”.  That is a powerful statement and one that I have said to myself at times.  Who was this “myself” that I hated.  Unlike my dear friend, I never met him but I consider him a friend, I did not go into a two year hibernation to discover these profound questions.  However I had my own path, my own “wake up calls” into self-discovery, and I was fortunate enough to have people help see what life was like with no ego or judgment.  In life you have your own path, responsibilities, people that help you grow and who that derive energy from you.  The only way is accept, be grateful and design ways to grow/change through the life you are given (accept in no way means to settle, it means being at peace with yourself).

I came to the realization that I was living my life through the eyes of my ego, a construct of the past…things like my nature, nurture, environment, upbringing, circumstances, pain, heartbreak, basically everything that HAD happened to me.  I wanted to write this blog as a way to face my own ego (my fear of opening up and judgment) but also as a way to share my continuing journey, wherever that journey is.

Journey is something people love to talk/dream about and want to associate with their own life, but anxiety, fear, impatience, and frustration hinder their ability to enjoy the journey.  Everybody is going to their own journey, as journey is just a continuous series of moments.  You are on your life journey, relationship journey, career journey and spiritual journey (whatever you believe spirituality means).  The decision to break my ego was certain and definite, but the change didn’t and doesn’t happen immediately.  We live in a world of instant gratification, exasperated by technology (which is both beautiful and scary), and a hate of frustration…we don’t want to wait, we want it now.  However the journey to break your ego takes time and is just that, a journey.  Just as much time it has taken to build that ego (for me it was close to 30 years), the more difficult it becomes to break…the ego is a parasite, striving to stay alive.  Everyone always says change is tough, and it is, because you are fighting what you are in your mind, your ego.

I will write about my trials, hopes, frustrations, past and successes.  I have no assumptions about who will read this (if anyone), but my hope is just to connect with the world and share my journey.  Living in the moment is the goal, and to live in the moment and enjoy the journey, you must quell your ego (accept yourself for who you are).  Have a great day and I am now more excited than ever about this journey.